It's Friday the 13th, and nothing really major happened...other than some idiot driving the wrong way down a one way street and almost hitting me and my friend head on...but thankfully, all was well.
I still need prayers for my step g-ma. Like I posted earlier, she's had a massive stroke...we don't know what direction she's going to go in. Trying to stay positive.
I am so very thankful to my friends! I've said it before, and at risk of sounding like a broken record, I will say it again--my friends ROCK! I am so thankful for all of the love, support, encouragement and prayers I have been receiving...definitely nice.
Had a nice day today, went to Myrtle Beach for a day trip with a friend of mine, who was getting some TV's from one of his family friends' condos. They are moving out, and since the TVs were free, and it was only a two hour drive, we drove down there this afternoon, got some dinner, and came back. It was definitely nice to get out of town for a little bit.
I am very thankful for my dog...seriously, I don't know what I'd do without him. I'm also thankful for my cats, but since they are not currently with me (will be another couple of weeks until I can get everything together, including my cats), I am focusing on my dog. I'm spending a lot of time with him, and I am so very thankful that I made the decision to get him a year and a half ago (ok, so Charles had some say too...but I was the one who wanted him). From the minute I picked him up in Mooresville, NC...it was love at first sight. He has helped me SO much emotionally, because whenever he knew I was upset or crying, he would come and lick my face or put his head in my lap. He is always happy to greet me, and when I got back to the house around 10:45 tomorrow he jumped up, hugged me and danced around all happy-like. Dogs truly are a man (or woman's!) best friend!:)
That's about it for now. Not really sure what my weekend plans are, I am thinking of catching up on True Blood tomorrow, maybe reading a book and having "me time"...as for Sunday, I am planning on going to see Alexis, who is actually Charles' niece but whom I plan on keeping in contact with, as she is only a few years younger than me. Hope that everybody has a wonderful weekend!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Outlets
I am starting to become extremely, insanely bored. I don't normally get bored, but I need some intellectual stimulation with people. I only have a few close friends still left in Wilmington, so it makes it hard for me to have much of a social life here, and I desperately need some outlets...I'm open to suggestions....even though I am only planning on "staying" here temporarily, I still have GOT to find something to do with my time, there's only so much job searching and facebooking one can do in a day...
And I'd say "oh I'll join a gym" but money is tight, and it's too stinking hot to go walking during the day...seriously, these 100+ degree days can stop, and that would be fine with me!:) I am looking forward to the cooler days of fall...SERIOUSLY.
And I'd say "oh I'll join a gym" but money is tight, and it's too stinking hot to go walking during the day...seriously, these 100+ degree days can stop, and that would be fine with me!:) I am looking forward to the cooler days of fall...SERIOUSLY.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Prayers
Ok, my family could use some prayers...my step-grandma has had a massive stroke earlier this morning. Don't really know the details yet, but my mom and stepdad are in Florence, SC. I hope that she is okay!!
On a positive note....I found out about a job opening up in Greenville, SC through one of my sorority sisters-yay!! Greenville is on my "list" of places that I would like to potentially move to and start a new life there.
I am thankful for all of the prayers and love I have been receiving...it truly helps me to stay positive and realize that I am really better off in the long run. For so long, I thought I couldn't do better, and now I am seeing that that is not the case. I am actually truly LIVING again, I feel much happier than I have in a long time, and I'm loving that I go to bed with a smile on my face, instead of crying myself to sleep. I am enjoying flirting...and it feels good!:)
I finally got to meet my friend Nick's lovely new wife last night, Holly! They are so cute together and give me hope that I will find what they have at some point:) Holly actually made a suggestion for my second tattoo that I have been wanting for quite some time now...I want to get a tattoo that symbolizes, courage, strength and resilience to represent this difficult time in my life as well as moving past it. It's going to be a while before I can get it done, but any suggestions for tattoos would be great!:) The suggestion Holly made was a witch's hat (from the musical Wicked) with the words "defy gravity" around it...kinda a good motto for life:)
On a positive note....I found out about a job opening up in Greenville, SC through one of my sorority sisters-yay!! Greenville is on my "list" of places that I would like to potentially move to and start a new life there.
I am thankful for all of the prayers and love I have been receiving...it truly helps me to stay positive and realize that I am really better off in the long run. For so long, I thought I couldn't do better, and now I am seeing that that is not the case. I am actually truly LIVING again, I feel much happier than I have in a long time, and I'm loving that I go to bed with a smile on my face, instead of crying myself to sleep. I am enjoying flirting...and it feels good!:)
I finally got to meet my friend Nick's lovely new wife last night, Holly! They are so cute together and give me hope that I will find what they have at some point:) Holly actually made a suggestion for my second tattoo that I have been wanting for quite some time now...I want to get a tattoo that symbolizes, courage, strength and resilience to represent this difficult time in my life as well as moving past it. It's going to be a while before I can get it done, but any suggestions for tattoos would be great!:) The suggestion Holly made was a witch's hat (from the musical Wicked) with the words "defy gravity" around it...kinda a good motto for life:)
Monday, August 9, 2010
Where to begin...
I guess the best thing to do when beginning a blog is to begin the story, right? Well...I won't bore all of you with the long details of my 27 years of life. I have kept blogs before, and found it to be therapeutic, however, long ago got out of the practice because I felt "obligated" to write something in it everyday, or to read others, and inevitably, ended up feeling guilty. However, given how my life has recently been flipped COMPLETELY upside down, figured I'd give it another shot. Here goes:
At 27, after 2 years of struggling with my job and feeling "valuable" at work, things were going well. I had been promoted, I was getting a handle on my money (starting to pay off massive credit card debt=yay!), and...I was engaged! I was so excited about getting married, and I truly felt that my fiance was "The One" for me. This past June, I was let go from my job. Don't really care to go into the details, but I was not happy about it, and wanted to leave on my terms. My fiance was very supportive of me, and assured me that he knew something better would come along. Fast forward to a month and a half later...August 4, 2010 to be exact, and that is the day that my fiance told me FOR GOOD that he wanted me out of his life, even though he loved me, cared about me, and wanted "the best" for me. While I should say I was devastated, I saw this breakup coming a mile away, and by the time it was over, I was actually relieved. No more living my life that way, I was finally DONE and could move on...except that we were living together, and that has posed challenges, such as very quickly having to move everything out. I did get to keep the dog though!
That brings me to where I'm at now, currently staying with my parents in Wilmington until I can find something job-wise. My good friend Mike has suggested moving out of state and "starting anew", and honestly, I have to say, that that idea made sense to me. Before I wanted to stay in my former city, but I think doing an "overhaul" and cutting out people and places associated with him (restaurants we went to, some of his friends that claimed to be "my friend,"--when they were anything but, etc). I don't want to sound bitter...yes, I do have bitterness and anger, that I am currently trying to work on. But more than anything, I think this will be a great opportunity for me to focus on myself. I had been thinking for some time about a career change, and am considering going back to school to get my teacher license (too bad teacher jobs are not plentiful). Right now, I have a mental list of cities that I would like to possibly relocate to, such as Charleston, SC; Greenville, SC; Charlottesville, VA; pretty much anywhere in Tennessee, and Ohio (I like Columbus). We will see...I'd like to say that it's my decision, but I'd like to place that decision in God's hands. You see, in my relationship with my fiance, I did not always put God first the way that I feel I needed to. I'm beginning to learn incredible life lessons from my broken engagement.
I also want to just say that I have been incredibly blessed!! The amount of prayers, love, support and encouragement that I have received is truly overwhelming. I'm thankful to all of my family, friends and my community via Facebook, as everybody has really reached out to me and covered me with prayers and love. I feel God's presence in all this mess, and THAT is incredibly awesome.
I'll post more later...probably should get some sleep!
At 27, after 2 years of struggling with my job and feeling "valuable" at work, things were going well. I had been promoted, I was getting a handle on my money (starting to pay off massive credit card debt=yay!), and...I was engaged! I was so excited about getting married, and I truly felt that my fiance was "The One" for me. This past June, I was let go from my job. Don't really care to go into the details, but I was not happy about it, and wanted to leave on my terms. My fiance was very supportive of me, and assured me that he knew something better would come along. Fast forward to a month and a half later...August 4, 2010 to be exact, and that is the day that my fiance told me FOR GOOD that he wanted me out of his life, even though he loved me, cared about me, and wanted "the best" for me. While I should say I was devastated, I saw this breakup coming a mile away, and by the time it was over, I was actually relieved. No more living my life that way, I was finally DONE and could move on...except that we were living together, and that has posed challenges, such as very quickly having to move everything out. I did get to keep the dog though!
That brings me to where I'm at now, currently staying with my parents in Wilmington until I can find something job-wise. My good friend Mike has suggested moving out of state and "starting anew", and honestly, I have to say, that that idea made sense to me. Before I wanted to stay in my former city, but I think doing an "overhaul" and cutting out people and places associated with him (restaurants we went to, some of his friends that claimed to be "my friend,"--when they were anything but, etc). I don't want to sound bitter...yes, I do have bitterness and anger, that I am currently trying to work on. But more than anything, I think this will be a great opportunity for me to focus on myself. I had been thinking for some time about a career change, and am considering going back to school to get my teacher license (too bad teacher jobs are not plentiful). Right now, I have a mental list of cities that I would like to possibly relocate to, such as Charleston, SC; Greenville, SC; Charlottesville, VA; pretty much anywhere in Tennessee, and Ohio (I like Columbus). We will see...I'd like to say that it's my decision, but I'd like to place that decision in God's hands. You see, in my relationship with my fiance, I did not always put God first the way that I feel I needed to. I'm beginning to learn incredible life lessons from my broken engagement.
I also want to just say that I have been incredibly blessed!! The amount of prayers, love, support and encouragement that I have received is truly overwhelming. I'm thankful to all of my family, friends and my community via Facebook, as everybody has really reached out to me and covered me with prayers and love. I feel God's presence in all this mess, and THAT is incredibly awesome.
I'll post more later...probably should get some sleep!
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